Omar Abi Azar
It’s almost morning
Behind our building someone is shouting.
Maybe, like me, he also forgot to turn off the night.
In a few hours you will look so much smaller
Your hands will be smelling of cheap detergents
Your gaze will fade in a closed horizon.
When you wake up we will all look much older
The cities we loved will be one death away from the cities we hate.
The people we loved will be corpses in the cities we hate.
I guess it’s better.
I guess it’s cleaner.
The smell of detergent
Will be jasmine in your lungs.
I guess it’s better.
I guess it’s cleaner.
The smell of detergent will be a comfort in your soul.
Less loss.
Less sorrow.
Less love.
In cities,
In Bodies
That spit you
Continuously…
I guess it’s better.
I guess it’s a shame.
When you wake up.
Love and cities
Love in cities
Love and bodies
Love in bodies
Will be swiped by the smell of detergents
By fear of germs from our decaying bodies
As if the smell of our own flesh might kill us.
When you wake up
Don’t forget to
Love
Don’t forget to touch
To transgress
To go out
To resist
To be tempted
To be touched
Hugged
And kissed
In every corner
Of the city: your body.
It might never be morning again.
One more time I forgot to hug the light.
The man behind our building is still shouting.
In a few minutes
You will open your eyes
It will be dark.
I will look so much older
You will recognize me from the absence of hair on my head
Or from the soul confined in my body
That smells like my continuous decay.
If light comes back
When light comes back
Over what remains of our flesh and bones
You will get out of your bed
You will dance
In a crowd
You will sweat
On the rhythm of a music that I don’t understand
And probably hate
You will melt in other bodies
Other smells
that take you far from my bold skull.
To cities that will mean nothing to me
If cities
Crowds
Sweat
And flesh
Still exist.
10th of April, 2AM
Omar Abi Azar
Theatre director - Zoukak theatre company
Lebanon